Thursday, August 5, 2010

list of symptoms (+ 1)

approximately one year ago i woke with the following list of symptoms:

time.
prose.
apathy.
banality.
headache.
digression.
lack of sleep.
loss of words.
loss of appetite.
thoughts of rain.
poetic anesthesia.
feelings of sadness.
sentence fragments.
frequent meditation.
repetition of mantra.
overuse of repetition.
pushing slightly further.
inability to communicate.
decreased dream intervals.
experimentation with ritual.
decreased sensitivity to time.
syllabic repression of emotion.
increased dependence on form.
recurring thoughts of insomnia.
insomnia thoughts of recurrence.
increased sensitivity to hypnagogia.
circular orientation of thoughtforms.
inability to recognize Oedipal fixation.
withdrawal from friends and love ones.
occasional abortion of midday samadhi.
extended periods of occasional attempts.
obsessive experimentation with nostalgia.
increased consumption of media products.
rapid onset of dramatic temporary solitude.
occasional lapses in obligatory self-reflection.
inexplicable sensitivity to arbitrary past karma.
forced examination of self-defeating tendencies.
fear marked by prominence of existential ideation.
six years spent in lugubrious celebration of this day.

this morning i felt much the same, with the addition of a single symptom:

six years spent in lugubrious celebration of this day.
fear marked by prominence of existential ideation.
forced examination of self-defeating tendencies.
inexplicable sensitivity to arbitrary past karma.
occasional lapses in obligatory self-reflection.
rapid onset of dramatic temporary solitude.
increased consumption of media products.
obsessive experimentation with nostalgia.
extended periods of occasional attempts.
occasional abortion of midday samadhi.
withdrawal from friends and love ones.
inability to recognize Oedipal fixation.
circular orientation of thoughtforms.
increased sensitivity to hypnagogia.
insomnia thoughts of recurrence.
recurring thoughts of insomnia.
increased dependence on form.
syllabic repression of emotion.
decreased sensitivity to time.
experimentation with ritual.
decreased dream intervals.
inability to communicate.
pushing slightly further.
overuse of repetition.
repetition of mantra.
frequent meditation.
sentence fragments.
feelings of sadness.
poetic anesthesia.
thoughts of rain.
loss of appetite.
loss of words.
regurgitation.
lack of sleep.
digression.
headache.
banality.
apathy.
prose.
time.

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