Friday, August 31, 2012

Il est mort. (eulogy for Chris Marker)

I learned of his passing
one month after it happened -
a Thursday morning otherwise
consumed with insomnia and
thoughts of work and suddenly
my career didn't seem quite
so important, nor my sleeplessness,
nor my knowledge of either. I
wondered, in the way one does 
before sunrise, if his were the last
images I would ever truly love.


I wondered if I would
ever remember again
without thinking of him.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

2106 days ago tomorrow

Last year
she asked:

"Have you
written any
poetry lately?"
Well, I remember
(which does not mean:
I remember well)
one I wrote
two thousand
six days ago
tomorrow

[lapse]

She asked:
"Are you an artist?"
I f a lt e re d
What I meant to say:
"I'm living."

(I guess this makes this
an artist's commune)

Life as Picasso:


Longing an O'Keefe:


Words like teeth do chomp:


"The word 'art' interests me very much.
If it comes from the Sanskrit, as I've heard, it signifies 'making.'"
-Marcel Duchamp


And the one I wrote this morning:

her dancing round heart
the accidental haiku
beating safe and sound

Thank you,
I said, for asking.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Turtle Island Preserve (or, 'About last night...' - a letter to Mardou)

Mardou,

So last night my yin and I went with my dad and his girlfriend to this place called Turtle Island Preserve, which was set up by this guy named Eustace Conway. Elizabeth Gilbert's first book (The Last American Man, which is neatly sandwiched between her time as a relatively obscure journalist for Rolling Stone and her Eat, Pray, Love superstardom) was about Eustace, and apparently he is also one of the stars of some reality show called Mountain Men on the History Channel. 

(This is not beside the point, just backstory.)

We ended up there because my dad and Eustace became friends several years ago after my dad bought a piece of property that adjoined Eustace's 600 acres (or 1,000 acres, depending on who you ask) that crawls down the edge of Watauga County into the Wilkes County, one-time moonshine capital of the world.  As much as possible, Eustace attempts to approximate what it was like to live 150 years ago, and he approached my dad about swapping a small piece of land (0.1 acres) so he could more easily ride his horses to an upper pasture.  My dad is an accommodating and all-around easy-going fellow and agreed without hesitation.  Since then, they have helped one another on several occasions.

Also, Eustace sometimes comes up in the winter to shower at my dad's neighbor's house when it gets too cold to bathe in the creek.

Anyway, Eustace has created this amazing, surreal shangri-la about 45 minutes outside of Boone (or, as his website describes it, "eight miles east") and makes his living by running summer camps, speaking engagements, and charging city slickers to come clean his stalls, clear his land, and do all the manual labor that most of us would do anything to avoid.  I swear to god, Mardou, the guy offers an internship in chainsawing.

(Incidentally, when I told my grandfather about this yesterday afternoon, he inquired if he might get a position as adjunct professor.  I told him I would look into it...)

You enter through this covered bridge:

The sign above the entrance reads: "The finest of the fine arts is harmony in human relationship."

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m
age
miss
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As you might imagine, Eustace also attracts a kindly number of hippies, and within minutes of arriving my yin and I ran into our friend who owns the local yoga studio and just got back from two weeks in India. My yin had subbed at the studio the previous two summers, and it was nice to catch up with her since this short visit will likely preclude any stops by the studio.

(This is beside the point.)

Anyway, this was how we first met Eustace:


We spent the next hour walking around and taking in the extent of this place.  My dad had told me about Eustace's compound years ago, but I had no idea the scale of the operations:


 Giant cantilevered barns:


The sun through the trees:


Chickens running around:


Giant cocks:


 (ahem)

Goats, badly in need of milking:




And an inexplicable ark in the sky, possibly in anticipation of another 40 days and nights:


Did I mention he did all this by hand?

Eustace insisted that my dad ride shotgun on a buggy ride:


The main event was a group called Rising Appalachia whose music would be best described as folk bohemian pastiche:


Which was fronted by two sisters with hauntingly amazing voices:


Somewhere along their current tour, they picked up a French hippie (by way of Bali):


 Here's what the whole scene looked like from a distance:

 

 I thought it was amazing, but this dog seemed unimpressed:


Anyway, the evening reminded me of you, and I'll leave you with a link (the movie is to big to email) to my favorite part of the evening, Rising Appalachia's opening song, which is a folk song that the sisters traveled to Bulgaria to learn:
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ink
miss
in
g

(by request of the artist)

Love and light from us both... 

Friday, August 10, 2012

Homecoming

My yin and I are on our way back to North Carolina, almost a year since we last departed. Unlike the previous two summers, this year’s excursion is merely a vacation, a much-needed, much-delayed respite from the Florida summer. I remember last August, when I strapped a bed frame to the roof of my Jeep and wondering whether or not it would be able to stand the 700+ mile trip back to Florida. Amazingly enough, the only difficulty I had was during the first 3 miles on the Blue Ridge Parkway between my father’s house and Blowing Rock. By the time I reached the Green Hill Inn, an errant piece of duct tape had pulled loose and was flailing like a wounded bird in the cool morning air.

But this is beside the point.

The point is that I had grown attached to our summers in the mountains, and more than once I’ve felt that wishing twinge of nostalgia, the slippery slope of “I remember when…” that oftentimes finds its way to becoming “… it should have always been.”

But this is not the way of the material world.

Everything that has a beginning has an ending, and the pain we wrongly attribute to the ending itself its actually caused by the attempt to hold onto something that has already passed.

Vacations (like this one) are a good opportunity to remember...