looking for the right word

i've been treating my sadness with Exile on Main Street and reading about the coldest winter i ever saw and the horrible spring that followed.

there are two weeks of shorter days and two months of longer nights to follow.

i pulled myself away and drove across town and the words just came. pretty words, clever words, allusive words - words i didn't even know i knew back then come easily now. but there are still things that are hard to say, things i can't quite get my tongue around.

i'm feeling the sway right now, i'm feeling the weight of this wait, making plans for a future, reminding myself that tomorrow never got here yet.

this deserves more than this... but for now it will have to do.